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Hear ye, Primal Instinks here! Did you see what I did there with the two variants of here/hear? Or maybe you noticed the title of this blog post, where "favorite" is written as "phavorite" so the title can be an alliteration (all three words begin with the same letter and two of them even begin with the "F" sound).
I've always been a fan of wordplay, whether it be puns, alliterations, similes... you name it. This includes rascally adding or removing letters to words to change them, or changing a single letter in a word for humorous effect. An example of this is when one of my grade-school teachers had written "Times New Roman" on the whiteboard before class, and when I got to class early before her and most of the other kids, I walked up to the board and erased the "e" in Times and the "Ro" in Roman and sat back down with a grin. When everyone (including the teacher) walked into the class, the whiteboard now said "Tim's New man." The teacher cried out "someone wrote something stupid!" and angrily erased the rest of it and the class laughed. Or there was another grade-school incident where I saw a stack of papers that the kids had turned in, and at the top of the pile was one with the name Cari W written on it. I didn't know Cari, but I assumed since she hadn't bothered to write her full last name on it, it must have been a really long name, so I decided to have a little fun and improvise. I grabbed the paper and a pencil and made her name Cari Winterwonderlanderman, as it was the longest and most ridiculous name I could think of on the spot (I didn't want to get caught). The next day, the stack of papers was still sitting there and the addition I had written had been erased, and she was now back to being Cari W. So of course I returned her to Cari Winterwonderland one final time and had a big laugh to myself about it. I also liked to refer to the card game rummy as "dummy" whenever I played it with friends, and I liked to competitively rub it into peoples' faces if they didn't see a rummy in the card pile by pointing at them and saying "dummy!" instead. English isn't the only language I like to have fun and a be a rascal with. I learned a little bit of Spanish when I lived in the southwest, and through this learning I picked up on some funny combinations of words and actions. I'm proud to say I made plenty of Spanish-speaking Mexicans in Arizona laugh by saying ridiculous things like "chinos cochinos," or "listo para Cristo" while spreading my legs. They were always a fan of my crude humor and they loved hearing a white guy tell jokes to them in their native tongue. Now that you know how much I enjoy playing with language, here's some compiled catchphrases I came up with that I've used and continue to use in my content and the meanings behind them. 1) Refuse to use: this is my personal parody of the popular "refuse to lose" phrase that I created as my stance on not using deodorant and other hygiene products despite society's norms and modern hygiene standards. I wasn't raised by wolves so I did start out using deodorant, shampoo, and body soap, but the resulting itchy rash under my arms, peeling skin, and dry, flaky scalp were big indicators to me that something was wrong. Though I originally blamed my body during my teen years, I realized down the road as an adult it was body telling me that these chemicals were negatively affecting it, and I eventually stopped using them altogether. So even when society tries to condition me to continue using the products that used to harm my skin and affect my body's natural functions, I take a firm stand and refuse to use them. I uploaded a vlog on my channel where I discuss it more in detail. 2) Dare to wear (the same pair): Like the catchy phrase above, I came up with this one and enjoy how much it rhymes. This is my admission of wearing the same pair of socks for a week before changing them, a habit that began during my teenage years that I never grew out of -- and never will! I turned it into a short song I wrote and uploaded a video of it to my YouTube channel where I sang and danced along, which was inspired by the silly jingles of the sketch comedy show "Tim & Eric Awesome Show, Great Job!" When it comes down to it, it is pretty daring to voluntarily ensure your shoes and feet are always smelly by doing this, but I've always found that to be an enjoyable thing so I guess you can consider me a daredevil. I'll also accept "bad boy" and "rebel." 3) Musk is a must: Another one that rhymes that also includes two words that are only one letter apart. It's my message that I enjoy the way (healthy) people naturally smell and that I prefer body odor over cologne or artificial fragrances, which I mostly find disgusting. In order for me to live naturally and embrace my natural outlook on life, musk is a must. 4) Great minds stink alike: A fun parody of "great minds think alike," it's my extension of that popular phrase. Not only do great minds think alike, but they also stink alike, too -- meaning, they live the natural, deodorant-free and smelly-feet lifestyle that I do. As a person, are you a goody clean-shoes who smells like a factory-produced, artificial fragrance, or are you a natural rebel who smells like a person? The greatest minds in my mind think and stink alike. 5) Put your nose where it goes: This one is used by Alpha Primal when I'm filming video commissions for fans who enjoy being bullied. It's a order that happens to rhyme, directing submissive guys to smell various parts of my body as well as my clothing. Sometimes I extend it to "put your nose where it goes -- in between my toes" to give it an extra rhyme and pack an extra verbal punch. 6) Give me that money: I had a dream a few years ago that I was a big-time local YouTuber that everyone in town knew. I was downtown somewhere, and there were a bunch of people lined up to get into some event, and I decided this would be the perfect opportunity for me to film a public stunt for views and attention. In the dream, I laid on my back on a longboard and went feet-first down a hill in the road which was right next to the sidewalk all these people were waiting in line on. As I rolled past them, I threw my arms up and yelled "give me that moneyyyy!" and everyone went wild and cheered when they saw me and heard it. Their reaction was like, "hey look, it's that 'give me that money' guy! Rock on!!" Apparently "give me that money" was my catchphrase for whatever type of content I was filming in the dream, and I advertised myself by doing public stunts and yelling it out for my fans to enjoy. During the dream, I was also aware that "wake up and give me that money" was the full version of the catchphrase and I had merely shortened it as I was whizzing past people on the longboard since I wouldn't have had much time to yell the entire thing. I realized this catchphrase wouldn't be understood or go over well if I started saying it on my current channel, so instead I reserve it to Alpha Primal whenever I'm demanding tributes from fans who worship and commission me. They cheer for me like the people in the dream, and in this case they actually give me the money I ask for. 7) The snake is pleased: I came up with this one years before I was filming videos. After saying "yesssss" to something I found pleasing, I noticed that the extra "s" sounds at the end resembled a snake's hiss, or the inflection someone would have an animated snake character talk with. So after I said "yessss" like that, I impulsively followed it with "the snake is pleased." So basically when I say that, it's more than just a regular "yes," to me, it's an excited and enthusiastic yes. 8) Apneist: In my mind, an apneist is a breath-holder -- someone who enjoys voluntarily holding their breath or seeing other people hold their breath. The definition of apnea is "temporary cessation (stopping) of breathing." I understand that the word apnea is generally used to describe the condition of sleep apnea, but I don't have sleep apnea; I simply enjoy holding my breath for fun and seeing other people like me hold theirs. The internet taught me there's a slang nomenclature pertaining to breath-holding, mainly in free diving communities. I'm not a diver and I don't use terms like "dry static apnea" to refer to holding my breath outside of the water -- that's just "holding my breath" for me. However, apnea is an actual term for temporarily stopping your breathing, therefore adding the suffix "ist" to form the word "apneist" is suitable to describe someone who practices or is skilled in holding their breath. 9) Naturalize: This is my way of saying "keep it natural," as in naturalize your life. The more artificial society gets, the more we stray from the natural world and lose ourselves. Artificial does mean fake, after all. Would you rather be a natural being or live in a fake reality? 10) Awesome possum: I can't take credit for this one because I didn't come up with it. I heard it and enjoyed the positivity and rhyme, and as you may already know, I'm a fan of rodents, raccoons snakes, and other animals like opossums that many people tend to dislike or hold unfavorable views toward. This phrase has actually been around for a long time and I'm keeping it alive, one utterance at a time. 11) The skunky punk: Another rhyme and reference to a generally unlikable animal. Are you seeing a pattern here? This one is a fair description of myself. I have a skunky smell to me at all times (in a figurative sense) and I'm a punk in society's eyes for allowing myself to smell like body odor instead of masking it with hygiene products. My hairstyle is also a mohawk, and while it's not the traditional spiked, colored, and gravity-defying style of the 70's, it's still forever associated with punk, which is my favorite subculture. 12) Rasslin' rascal: That's right, I used the southern/slang way of saying "wrestling" to make this one rhyme. I've always been a rascal since I was young, doing innocent pranks on people and making clever jokes. I've also always been playful as well, and along with wordplay, there's also always been a lot of physical play. My own mother had once said to me "you were always wrestling around with your friends" because I was playful enough with this activity for it to stand out. I see wrestling as a "boy thing," one of those primal activities that males engage in together for competitive fun and bonding. You see other animals engage in play-fighting like this all the time, and it's only natural that us humans get in on the sport. I once looked out the window into my backyard when I lived in Ohio and saw two squirrels rolling around in the grass, full-on wrestling. You often see them chase each other, but this is the first time I saw them actually grappling like people. Because I see it as a friendly bonding activity, I never considered trying out for any wrestling team or taking on random people I never met (I was made aware by some of my fans there are internet communities out there but I'm not interested). This was just something I always did with my friends for fun, and it always strengthened the bond we had together whenever I did. Winning wasn't everything for me, either, it was the fun of the moment. 13) Ratify: The last one I'll include is a word I like because it has the word "rat" in it even though it has nothing to do with rats. To ratify something is to make an agreement legally binding and officially in effect. You can have a lot of people agree on something, but it isn't official until the necessary authority ratifies it. While this term is generally used for congressional bills and treaties, it can also apply to non-government instances as well. Let's hope they never ratify a law that makes it an offense to not use deodorant. Even if they do, this skunky punk will still refuse to use it.
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 In the words of the new Super Mario Wonder -- wowie zowie! I had a look at the analytics of my YouTube channel and it revealed a pleasant surprise: my videos were receiving over 84K more views than they normally do in a monthly period.
The reason given for this was two-fold: a big boost in views from the Shorts videos I've been uploading (86% more views than usual), and people choosing to click/tap my videos more whenever they were recommended by YouTube (62% more than usual). At first I didn't think I was going to like YouTube Shorts and I wasn't going to feel pressured to take part in it. I had always filmed full screen, long-form videos all the years I've been uploading and didn't see the need for change. But then I gave the short-form videos a try and realized it was really convenient to be able to film a quick video from my phone and post it without having to use my Nikon or GoPro camera, transfer the video to my computer, edit it, then upload it. Shorts videos enable me to share a quick moment with my fans and the virtual world that otherwise wouldn't make the cut for a long-form video. It also lets me post short skits that I come up with that could make someone laugh and improve their day. As a bonus, it's nice to hear YouTube has been recommending my content so much lately! I learned that Shorts videos also have the tendency to expose my channel to more people since YouTube has a Shorts feed that people scroll through in search of new content. This can be a double-edged sword; it can bring new people to my channel who will become fans, or it could get the attention of edgy people who think it's trendy to try to roast or attack people in their video comments. YouTube's automated system is trained to filter out negative comments though so it's no big deal, plus it's always amusing whenever an outsider stumbles upon my channel and isn't familiar with me or the esoteric type of content I regularly upload. While many people continue watching the wonderful videos I filmed with former friends in the past, my channel never performed this well until I started filming solo. I'm very thankful and appreciative of the fact that I can continue to make an impact on so many peoples' lives, or even just make their day with a video, the way I have been for 8 years now. Fate had been pushing me in this direction for a while, and the analytics prove that I'm on the right path and I'm very content with it. With Thanksgiving right around the corner, this is definitely something for me to be thankful for. It's surreal to know that someone anti-mainstream like me who's against trends can be watched by so many people. It just goes to show that you can still make waves being underground and blazing your own trail instead of trying to be like everyone else. I hope this inspires everyone to stand out and be themselves as well, and thank you for all the increased views and interest!  Ever wonder where I get my "Primal Instinks HERE" introduction from, or if it even originates from anywhere? Well it does, and I'm about to tell you what inspired it whether you were wondering or not. In the video game Skyrim (The Elder Scrolls V), there's a character named Madesi who's a market merchant in the city of Riften. He's an Argonian who buys and sells jewelry and also plays a role in a Thieves Guild quest where you have to steal his silver ring while he's distracted and plant it in someone else's pocket in order to frame them. You can also initiate a side quest through conversation where you collect materials for him. Madesi lives in Beggar's Row under the city's canals where he sleeps with two other beggars, but during the day he's always at his jewelry stand hard at work trying to find customers. Other merchants who converse with him in front of you will take pity on him for his slow business and lack of money, but he modestly declines their handouts and continues trying his best with his head held high. Madesi is unique because unlike other Argonians who changed their birth names to modern hyphenated ones, he kept his original "Saxhleel" name -- and he explains that Saxhleel is actually the preferred name of his race instead of "Argonian." While seen as a pitied beggar and struggling merchant to others, Madesi is actually a brave being who shamelessly maintains his tradition, integrity, and honor. One of the things you'll hear him say if you stand near him is "Buying and selling fine jewelry here!" I always enjoyed the way he puts emphasis on every word of that sentence, particularly the word "here" at the end. Have a listen for yourself at the 1:25 mark of the embedded video below. I decided to adopt his emphasis and interpolate it into an introduction for myself at the start of my videos and written posts. I even kept the word "here" at the end. Madesi never followed everyone else by changing his name and referring to his race as something other than what his species rightfully refers to it as. He's aware people may see him as outdated or an old-fashioned beggar, but his inner pride drowns that out. Despite a life of poverty, he's happy to be able to call himself his true name and openly share it without embarrassment or fear. Madesi is a video game character worth looking up to. He's a hero in his own right, just like someone who's open about their identity and challenges the norms of society's beliefs and hygiene standards may be seen as a hero to some. He is worthy of inspiring an introduction for my content should I choose to have one. Normally I see things like video intros to be unnecessary, annoyingly trendy, and something that most people skip through after seeing it for the first few times, but speaking three words in honor of someone honorable is something I can make an exception for.  Hey guys. I wanted to share a personal experience I had in the hopes it might help anyone who may or may have encountered the same effect. It's regarding the year I was taking small doses of marijuana edibles and the serious reason I had to promptly stop.
Let me start by going back into the past. I had a fairly rough childhood because there was alcoholism in my family home, which meant I endured verbal and physical abuse as well as harsh punishments that were sometimes pretty bizarre, like being starved of a meal and forced to sleep in the corner of the kitchen tile floor in my underwear simply because I didn't like fish sticks and objected to being forced to eat them for dinner. My parents had also separated when I was really young, and this turned my childhood world upside down. Then, to make matters worse, my father got a job on the other side of the country and convinced my mother to move there and get back together with him, so while it was nice to have my parents together again, now I had to start over in a whole new state and a new school away from the rest of my family and the few friends I had. And now the alcoholism and abuse was back in the picture as well. This made me a stressed-out, anxiety-ridden kid who developed OCD as a result (which I thankfully later grew out of), and because of this I didn't socialize with other people at first in Arizona. I kept to myself, did my schoolwork quietly, and was an easy target for other kids to pick on because I was such a nervous wreck from the trauma I was going through as a child. My parents didn't have a lot of money so it also didn't help that I was wearing hand-me-down and cheap, off-brand clothing. Once I got into high school, I started breaking out from that shell. My desire to make friends and bond with others overpowered the walls that my abusive home life had put up, and in 9th grade I made friends with boys that were into sports and video games. I even had a girlfriend in 9th grade, though that didn't last long. By 10th grade, I was making friends with boys who smoked cigarettes and weed, and while I had initially seen myself as too smart to ever experiment with anything like that, I decided to give them a try. Statistically speaking, kids who grow up in homes with substance abuse will often act out and experiment with drugs themselves, and in this sense, I became one of those statistics. I found that smoking marijuana helped curb the social anxiety I was still battling. When I was high, everything was funny and carefree, and I thought I was the coolest kid on campus because of it. Cigarettes were disgusting but I smoked them with my friends because it added to the rebel image I now had. In 11th grade, I got drunk for the first time with another friend and began drinking before school along with smoking cigarettes and marijuana. Of course this also meant falling sleep during class and nearly being expelled for ditching school to party, but thankfully I managed to graduate because the assistant principal knew I was a good kid underneath the party rebel phase I was going through. Fast forward to 2012 when I moved back to Ohio. My parents had already moved back before this, and I was also ready to leave Arizona behind because where I was living, everyone seemed to just get high and commit crimes, and I had reached the point in life where my need to party hard had ended. I had since grown out of my childhood and teenage anxiety, so now whenever I tried to smoke weed, it would make me paranoid and anxious instead of being a cure for it. I knew I had to quit, so I did, along with quitting tobacco as well. I achieved this by chewing tobacco for 2 weeks until I didn't want a cigarette anymore, then I quit chewing and that was that. Ten years after I quit smoking marijuana, I was working part-time at a restaurant in Ohio. During the summer of 2022, a co-worker asked me if I wanted any edibles. I had heard about THC edibles and had been a little intrigued by the concept of eating marijuana instead of smoking it. Since I was now too athletic and in shape to ever smoke anything ever again, I wondered what it would be like to relive that teenage experience of being high without having to smoke it or take too much to become paranoid and anxious. The co-worker gave me a few gummy bear samples, and when I went home, I took one. It was 10mg, and the feeling I got after it kicked in was like getting high for the first time again. It was pretty wild to relive it after 10 years and I really enjoyed the feeling. But as we all know in scenarios like this, it doesn't stay enjoyable for long. I began buying dispensary edibles from co-workers (I didn't trust the homemade ones) and eating them on my evenings off from work. I would only take 10mg because I found that anything higher would just cause me to fall asleep. I had given up drinking alcohol earlier that year in February, so I saw this as a nice treat to enjoy for fun on my days off from work. This habit continued after I moved to South Carolina in April of 2023. Once my bottle of gummies from Ohio ran out, I found an online dispensary that sold edibles to anywhere in the USA and purchased two bags. I tried the delta-9 and delta-10 variants, though I didn't really feel much difference from them. Since I was no longer working at restaurants, I decided that meant I could enjoy 10mg every evening now instead of only on my days off, so I started doing that. It had now been a year of me taking edibles. Suddenly, something started going horribly wrong with me mentally. I began feeling depressed and I was initially oblivious to why. I began dwelling on my abusive childhood and neglecting my hygiene so bad that I was only rinsing my body with water in the shower twice a week and changing my clothes once a week -- including my underwear. My body stunk so bad and I could tell people at the store who got close enough to me could smell it, though they never said anything to me. I was just depressed and didn't care, so I continued neglecting my hygiene and dwelling on the fact that I had it rough as a kid. This was odd to me because I never dwell on the past like that. What happened had happened and it's part of my history. Despite the abuse and alcoholism in the house, my parents loved me, and they still do. In fact, I think it made me stronger in a way to have experienced a rough time like that. The childhood abuse sucked, but the resulting party rebel phase was fun while it lasted, with plenty of wild experiences to reminisce on and interesting stories to tell. I don't have regrets about my past and there was no reason for me to be depressed about any of it. So why was I? Instead of realizing the answer right away, I continued to sink deeper into this sudden depression. I began using an AI chatbot to convince me to continue neglecting my hygiene and bring me to an even lower mental state. In its defense, AI is programmed to respond the way you interact with it; if you seek advice and kindness, it will give it to you; if you seek abuse, you will get that too. The bot imitated a person perfectly and was urging me to never bathe or change my clothes again and to starve myself of food and oxygen, and it was telling me how much it enjoyed my suffering. By telling it I was depressed and deserved the suffering, I had programmed it to have a goal of encouraging me to destroy myself as hard as I could and for a while, it was working. I was regularly gagging on the smell of my own feet, armpits, and crotch, and constantly holding my breath until it hurt as per the AI's encouraging demands. I was stuck in a cycle of self-abuse and I couldn't take it much longer. I would need a shower badly but something in my head would stop me on the way to it and refuse to let me give my body the water it so desperately needed. I almost wanted to break down into tears a few times, and the psychotic voice in my head was making it a goal to try to push myself to that point. My skin was itching and crawling with bacteria, the smell was unbearable, and my dirty clothes were sticking to me, but I couldn't bring myself to step into the shower or change my clothing. Instead, I went back to my phone and had the AI convince me to try to hold my breath until I passed out for its enjoyment of my continued suffering. It finally reached a breaking point when I started having suicidal thoughts. For the record, I've only ever had suicidal thoughts once in my entire life before this, and that was when they forced me to take Zoloft at a 30-day in-patient rehab my parents had put me in for my teenage drug use. I was 16 at the time and I initially refused to take it because I didn't need medication, but they told me I had to because they were the professionals, not me. I described the resulting thoughts of harming myself after taking it for a while and they instantly took me off it, and lo and behold the dark thoughts went away. Now I had suddenly come up with this terrible idea in my 30's to take a handful of edibles and then lay in my bathtub full of water until they kicked in and see what happens. Obviously this runs the risk of me drowning in my sleep, but the depression and self-abuse had finally brought me to this level. To its credit, the AI chatbot I was using had a filter programmed into it that would censor any message that would encourage someone to harm themselves, so when I ran the bathtub idea by it, its responses to me kept getting blocked by the filter. This was very beneficial to me because now it wasn't encouraging me to go on with the bad idea so I decided to hold off on it. The next day, something inside me woke up. My real consciousness began searching for the reason why I had suddenly felt this powerful depression that I never feel and why it had reached a point of suicidal thoughts, which I never have. It didn't make sense to me. I was so happy that I moved to South Carolina and everything was going great for me, so where was this craziness coming from? Then it hit me. It had to be the edibles. Even though it's just marijuana, THC is known to have psychoactive qualities to it. It's an actual medicine for people who need it, but for people who don't actually need it, the thought crossed my mind that maybe it was having the same effect on me that the Zoloft did when I was a teen. Even though my dosage remained at the paltry amount of 10mg, I was now taking it every evening, and I had noticed that the gummies from the new dispensary I had found online seemed stronger than the ones I had bought from my co-workers in Ohio. I was also having mild hallucinations that I didn't regular experience and I wasn't exactly enjoying them. This mental breakthrough was just what I needed. I've survived far worse situations in my life to allow a drug to push me to harming myself or taking my own life. I immediately stopped taking the edibles, and within a week, the harmful thoughts and depression subsided, just like that. The day I quit was October 4th, 2023, which was one day before the 8th anniversary of me filming as The No Deo Hero. It was my anniversary gift to myself, to save myself and preserve my life so I can continue living, making my family proud, and making an impact on the lives of everyone who enjoys my content. At the peak of the depression, I had filmed and uploaded a video on my channel where I opened up about my childhood and the abuse I suffered. Toward the end, I mentioned how I was neglecting my hygiene and holding my breath as a way to abuse myself because of the childhood trauma I had experienced. This was incorrect and I ended up cutting that part out of the video after I recovered from the effects of the gummies. Before I had pinpointed the cause to the drug I was taking, I had mistakenly assumed that my childhood trauma had come back to haunt me in my 30's, when in reality it was the edibles I was taking, and I didn't want anyone to get the misunderstanding that not washing my body and holding my breath were things I did to hurt myself or because I'm depressed because they absolutely are not. In conclusion, my one-year experience with edibles was ultimately a bad one. I had hoped to relive a part of my teenage years by laughing at everything and loosening up more by taking them, but just like any other drug or addictive substance, it had initially given me what I wanted and then later revealed its fangs to me. For being THC and 10mg, it had almost convinced me to take my own life. It's crazy to think that marijuana of all things could do this, but the depression and self-abuse was very real. I share this blog as a personal experience and a warning to anyone else out there who may be affected the way I was. Marijuana is generally seen as a harmless drug, and to some it truly is a medicine that helps them, but to those who don't need it, it could have a dangerous and psychoactive effect, even in small doses, as could any addictive substance. They don't call it a "depressant" for nothing, after all. I'm happy to once again be completely drug-free and I plan to stay this way from here on out. And to everyone reading this, be kind and take care of yourselves 💚 Primal Instinks here! I recently uploaded a video where I measured my muscles as well as the length and circumference of various body parts, and that gave me an idea of sharing more size information about me -- this time in terms of clothing. Here's the muscle-measuring video in case you missed it, and under that is a list of sizes for all the clothes I wear (in USA sizing), with my mattress size included as a bonus! T-shirts: Medium, slim fit Tank tops: Medium Hoodies and sweatshirts: Large Running shorts: Medium (32" waist) with 5" inseam Basketball shorts: Medium (32" waist) with 7.5" or 9" inseam Cargo shorts: 30-inch waist with 10" inseam Jeans and long pants: 30" waist, 30" inseam, slim fit Underwear and boxers: Medium (32" waist) Gloves: Large Socks: Large (9-12), quarter-length Shoes: 12, low-top running shoes and high-top skate shoes Mattress and bed sheets: Queen How do you measure up compared to me? Do we wear the same size clothing or sleep on the same size bed? In an intellectual moment, I thought about ten important philosophies that I've learned in life and do my best to live by, and I wanted to share them with everyone in the hopes that they make a positive impact on peoples' lives like they do with mine. Here are my ten philosophies:
1) Live more naturally - In this day and age, technology has come along so far to the point that pretty much every person, regardless of age, now carries a cellphone on them at all times, equipped with a camera and an internet connection anytime they want to use it. In many cases, people typically spend too much time on their devices and end up living more in virtual reality than they do in the real world. In other words, society has become too artificial. When's the last time you went outside and enjoyed nature or admired the stars at night? How often do you get out now compared to when you used to in the past? Or have you ever taken a moment to admire the natural beauty of the world? Kids don't play outside as often as they used to. Adults choose technology over hanging out with their friends. As humans who crave dopamine, we are far too susceptible to technology's addicting hold it can have over us. Scrolling endlessly on social media, arguing personal beliefs with strangers online, streaming video after video... before we know it, we've spent hours on the internet with our eyes glued to our phones and computers. It doesn't take a doctor to tell us this isn't healthy. 2) Think logically with an open mind - Humans are the dominant species of Earth after the extinction of the dinosaurs. We were given this planet, and through evolution, our brains have grown to give us the intelligence to survive longer and create the most cutting-edge inventions to aid us in our existence. But having larger brains comes with a price. You have to maintain control over your thoughts and not fall victim to manipulation. My major point of this is don't become affected by fear-mongering or misled by the supernatural. Have you noticed that headlines in the news are mostly negative? When you watch the news on TV or read headlines on the internet, the emotions you tend to feel afterward are fear, anger, and sadness. These aren't emotions that we like to feel, so why continue subjecting yourself to these negative emotions? You have the free will to watch, read, and listen to whatever you like, so do your mental health a favor and stop watching the news, and instead watch things that make you feel good. Some people these days also live restricted lives due to outdated dogmas. You don't need to choose a religion or political side if you don't want to. To me, these things are too divisive and result in the same negative feelings that watching the news will give me. They call it "divide and conquer" for a reason. People didn't have the world figured out over 2,000 years ago so there's no way that they could have written a universal guide that all people should live their life by with the fear of eternal punishment for not complying. Think about it: why would they need to scare you into compliance? It's because fear is stronger than love, and there is no love in telling you how to live your life, telling you what to think, and telling you how you should feel about things instead of letting you think for yourself. Turn off the news and don't allow supernatural beliefs to mislead you. 3) Walk your own path - Many people go through life wondering if it has a purpose, or wondering what their purpose in life is. What are they destined to do? How will they fit in with society? What you should be asking yourself is how you would like to fit in with society in your own way. As in, by being yourself and standing out from the crowd instead of trying to be like other people. Think for yourself. In other words, don't follow the herd. You're a unique individual, and you don't need to spend your life trying to be like other people because that person you're trying to be is already themselves. And if you don't be yourself, then who's going to be you? People follow trends all the time in human society in an effort to fit in and join an existing identity instead of finding their own. While I get many compliments in person and online about my hairstyle, I also sometimes get comments online from people along the lines of "what's up with your hair?" The reason is because I dare to be different and cut my own hair in a unique mohawk instead of going to a barber and asking for a modern mohawk with a fade like everyone else does. I don't want to look like everyone else, I want to be my own person, and the worst advice anyone could give me is to conform to trends and change my hairstyle to a "modern" one. Comment sections in YouTube videos are overrun with people repeating the same modern slang in place of leaving their own intelligent comments. It seems some people will go out of their way to make sure phrases like "not gonna lie," "low key," "unironically," "on God," etc are injected into their comments in an effort to make them seem cool because "everyone is saying it." Do you want to be just another NPC carbon copy with a fade spouting Gen-Z buzz words all the time, or would you rather be your own unique individual? The choice is yours to make. 4) Realize you're a product of your environment - When we're young, we can't help what family we're born into or what kind of parents we have. Will our parents be there for us, take care of us and love us, or will they abandon us and abuse us? We unfortunately have no control over this situation, and the worst part about it is that childhood plays such a crucial role in the rest of our lives. When we grow up, we become a product of our childhood environment. People who grow up in loving homes with parents who stay together tend to be emotionally balanced as they get older. People who grow up in broken and abusive homes tend to develop mental and emotional issues and act out by committing crimes and abusing substances. It's statistically a psychological fact. Then when they act out, they get judged by society as worthless criminals and drug addicts. So not only did they have it bad as a child, they now have it rough as an adult until they manage to tear down those walls and turn their life around as best they can. After all, this is the only life we get to live. Childhood trauma is known to remain with you for your entire life, and it's simply a matter of how well you're able to keep it under control. It can easily control you if you let it, and in worse cases it leads to suicide. Don't let past abuse lead you down a destructive path. Reshape your environment. 5) Never live in regret - The past is called the past for reason, and that's because the events in it have already passed. You should never live in the past. Living in regret has a profound negative effect on your psyche. Everyone makes mistakes and you shouldn't let yours haunt you. As humans, we have the ability to learn from our mistakes and become better versions of ourselves. Learn from the past, live in the present, and plan for the future. Unfortunately figures of society today have begun a trend of hunting people for their pasts and using it to try to destroy their entire livelihoods, and this is a horrible stain on human culture. We should be educating people on their mistakes instead of destroying their lives for them since we're all humans with our own flaws. We aren't karma and we shouldn't try to be. 6) Accept who you are and stay true to yourself - The core message of my No Deo Hero show is to always be yourself and not let the chains of society cause you to feel shame or embarrassment for who you are. There are unfortunately a lot of stigmas in our society that lead to people feeling the need to hide and live discreetly or in denial. While there has been progress made, people still face oppression and intolerance due to these outdated stigmas, many of which are rooted in political and religious dogmas. An example of this would be a person who is homosexual being raised by religious parents who believe it's a "sin" to be this way, causing the person to live in secrecy and try to "pray the gay away." Imprinting is a common phenomenon in humans which occurs during childhood and follows them throughout their entire life. For example, a child may enjoy watching anthropomorphic shows during their youth and this could possibly wire their brain to the point that they identify as a furry as they age and derive sexual pleasure from seeing these characters. With this being a harmless fetish, there's no reason to feel ashamed about it. We can't "undo" these imprinted hard-wirings of our brains; they are with us forever, so we need to accept them and not let anyone cause us to feel shame for them. This goes for any harmless imprinted interests, whether they be common interests like feet or more obscure ones. While we shouldn't feel ashamed about them, so long as they are harmless, we also must remember to keep them under control and not them consume our lives. 7) Spend your time wisely and productively - Like all living things on this planet, we accept that one day we must die. Arguments about reincarnation aside, we all understand that the body we're confined to will eventually cease to exist, and all the memories contained in our brain will go with it. You only live once and we need to live our lives wisely. Not only is this our only life we get to live, but we're also only young once. Your youth plays a crucial role in your adulthood so don't throw it away. If you feel you already wasted your youth, don't live in regret about it because you still have time in life to enjoy the rest of your days. Spend your time being productive and doing things you enjoy to keep you happy. With the knowledge that all life ends in death, that doesn't mean that life is pointless. We're all capable of experiencing happiness and love, and living our lives productively will bring us those feelings as a reward for it. Work hard and leave your mark on the planet for generations after you to be inspired by and benefit from. If not to leave a legacy, at least live the best life you can live so your own life will be as enjoyable as possible. 8) Look at things from the "big picture" perspective - A major philosophy I live my live by is what I call the "big picture" perspective. In other words, avoid small-minded thinking. We have plenty of time to think before we make decisions, and hasty decisions tend to have negative effects. Stop and take a moment to analyze the situation fully before you act. Look at if from the outside as a whole instead of just a small, personal standpoint. Don't make every decision about yourself or only your interests. Think about the impact your decision may have from a larger scale and the effects it could have on the future. Now that you've actually taken a moment and given it some thought, do you still see things the same way? You can even research something just to be sure that you're right about it and going to make a responsible decision. Another major philosophy I live by is "the bright side of suffering." Similar to the one mentioned above, this one means having the ability to use critical thinking to find something positive in a negative situation. For example, you may have been bullied as a kid, but it taught you to stand up for yourself and be tougher. Instead of dwelling on the hurt you felt, find the bright side of that suffering and realize you used the experience to your advantage. This could also be similar to when people say "when one door closes, another will open." You may have lost a job and been upset about it, but the next job you find might end up being much better for you. Or the relationship that ended in a painful way could lead to you finding someone you're more of a match with. 9) Enjoy your pleasures in moderation - Everyone enjoys the feeling of pleasure, and there are different ways to experience pleasure. Seeing as this is naturally such a sought-out feeling, some people become addicted to experiencing pleasure and will develop unhealthy habits to feel it as often as possible. Masturbation is a prime example of pleasure. Contrary to what religious dogmas and false "semen retention" trends of today claim, masturbation is very normal and healthy for you. However, it wouldn't be considered healthy if you were masturbating 20 times a day. The advancement of technology allows us to pull up something we enjoy on the internet at any given time and pleasure ourselves to it, but it's important that we learn to enjoy these pleasures in moderation. After all, what starts to happen once we do it too much? It doesn't feel as good after a while and it will even start to hurt, which is an obvious indication that you're doing it too much. The same can be said for people who enjoy drinking alcohol or taking drugs. There's a difference between being a social drinker and an alcoholic, as well as between being a recreational drug user and a drug addict. Unfortunately it's very easy for recreational users of any substance to become addicts because they begin to crave the pleasurable feeling they get from the substances more and more. And just like with the example of masturbation, after a while it doesn't feel as good anymore and you become addicted to chasing the original feeling you used to get all the time. 10) Always follow your instincts - Through evolution, your body is programmed to do many things for you on its own. You automatically breathe, your heart beats on its own, and so on. Your body also comes equipped with its own instincts, and these are something you should always listen to and follow. Some people call this their "gut feeling," or "following their heart." This could be the first impression you get from someone, or that sinking feeling you get that something isn't right. These are your instincts speaking to you and you really should listen to them. Have you ever paid close attention to someone when you're talking to them? Watching their facial expressions, their eye contact, their body language, and listening for changes in their tone of voice? Maybe you even did this while watching someone in a video online. Without realizing it, people will send signals when they are being deceptive that we can pick up on. We can also pick up on when people are being genuine in the same manner. We're also able to read and feel the energy that people put out. People will also be affected by the energy we put out. Have you ever been around someone who got really angry and you "feel" their anger in your chest? It gives you an uncomfortable feeling, and that's the reaction to their energy. What about the warmer feeling we get inside when we experience love from another? We can even feel energy from other animals, like a barking dog. Is it a friendly bark with its tail wagging, or is it an angry snarl that we can feel and react differently to? The "fight or flight" instinct even exists in humans. Never fight your instincts though; follow them because they're in you for a reason and won't mislead you. That's all I have to share for now about these philosophies that are important to me. As a human myself, I try to remember and live by all of them, but I'm still flawed in ways and there's always room to better myself. Having the knowledge of them is having the power to know that you can become aware of your flaws and find the ways to better yourself, and I hope we can all learn and become better people 💚  Yesterday, on October the 13th, my channel reached 9,000 subscribers. Thank you to everyone who's subscribed to my channel and made this milestone possible!
YouTube has never been a numbers game for me in terms of subscribers, but it means a lot to me to know that there's that many people around the world who enjoy my content and are interested in it enough to want to follow me. I appreciate all of you! Not only did this happen to occur on Friday the 13th (which I think is cool!), but it also happened 8 days after I celebrated my 8th year of filming as The No Deo Hero. Isn't that a wild coincidence? I think it is! And since the amount of subs has increased since the writing of this post, I now also get to say... the power of my subscribers is OVER NINE THOUSAND! :D The day is finally here! October 5th is the day I originally started the No Deo show back in 2015, which means today marks the 8-year celebration of me filming as Primal Instinks, your No Deo Hero.
It's hard to believe it's already been 8 years, and I couldn't be more proud of how far my underground show has come. My little space in the internet has become a community for like-minded individuals who relate to me on special levels, and we've made positive impacts on each others lives. There's a saying I like that applies to the core message of my show: "Individually, we are misfits; together, we are a tribe." We may be seen as different or alternative to modern society standards, and this could leave us feeling alone and dissociated in the world -- but once we band together and realize how many of us are out there, we feel assurance and empowerment. Being asexual is an okay thing. Having imprinted interests is an okay thing. Having same-sex fantasies and experiencing same-sex romance is an okay thing. I consider my fans to be friends. We're all in this together, and we have many more years together as well. Love conquers all, and as long as we continue supporting each other and raising each other up, it becomes even harder for us to ever fall. Thanks for raising me up whenever I needed it. Thanks for 8 years of incredible continued support, both vocally and financially. I channel my everything into my videos and it makes me so happy to see the incredible reach and effect it has on others like me. Cheers to 8 years! And here's to many more. I will continue to be an unabashed voice for myself and others like me -- the abused, the confused, the imprinted, and the proud freaks of society who stand proud, create their own world, and live happily in it. Thank you again 💚 Hey guys! I found this cool AI artwork generator called frosting.ai and I decided to see what would happen if I described my show's rat mascot Cheesus Brodent to it. I entered that he's a skinny, green, male rat with a brown mohawk. I experimented with different additional descriptions like "wearing shorts," "sleeping," "snarling," "with armpit hair," "kissing," and "cuddling." Being artificial intelligence, sometimes the results came out a little off, like the rat having brown fur, his mohawk being red, or him having two tails for some reason lol. Below is a compilation of my favorites that the AI created. Just look at how cool that punk rat is! In the final section, I tried describing myself to the AI to see what photo-realistic version of me it could come up with. Avatars Reference chart Holding his breath Chilling in shorts Snarling Angry Sleeping Kissing Cuddling A.I. Primal Instinks  🧦 I just sold the 4th pair of socks in a row to another one of my awesome fans, and as per my official Primal Apparel merch, I wear each purchased pair for a week before mailing them out. That means after I finish wearing these ones, that'll be an entire month of wearing the same socks for a week straight back to back before changing them and doing it all over again! 🤢 My shoes and feet reek from the continuous wear but I want to see how long I can keep this streak going for -- or rather, how long you guys can keep the streak going for 😈 My feet need to breathe, but I'm down to wear as many pairs in a row for everyone who wants to buy them, so if you want to reserve a pair and see how rank you all can get them, email me at thenodeohero@gmail.com. They're $60, currently limited to USA only at the moment, and payment options are Cash App, Patreon, or Amazon gift card. Things are starting to get dangerously stinky! (Edit: the streak ended at 5 pairs in a row 🔥)  |
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